I thought that maybe I should write something here. It’s Monday morning today – about 1 AM and I have nothing else to do.
Since it’s inception – the blog page has been empty. I am not sure whether sharing some personal stuff here is a good idea, but perhaps it’ll make me see things more clearly and give me the peace of mind I need. And to be honest, almost no one visits this website – so whatever I write will most likely not be read by anyone. But of course, I shall remove any personal and identifying information.
This week was a boring week – like any other one in my life. I am used to boring weeks :). But the weekend decided to bring me some change into it – a change, which made me so happy that I want to share it here.
But to tell you why I got so happy, I need to go back in time – a few months. I got acquainted with a girl last year (you may think that this is another boring love story, but it’s not exactly). Yep, and being the shitty person I am, I befriended her and started developing feelings – like any other guy probably and I do still have them. The sad thing is that one night our happy chats ended and most likely I was to blame. I won’t share further details for the sake of privacy.
Back to the future, this Friday, 10 months later – in the morning, she wrote to me with a fake profile. After a while of chatting, she revealed her identity and I was shocked in a good way. I’m most happiest person on Earth now. 😛 I know, you may think this is a little thing, but it isn’t for me. We’re friends, I hope our friendship becomes something more one day – but I only can hope for now – hopes and dreams are free. And I need to somehow find the courage to tell her what I think/want, which might happen some day. In any case, I do wish her the best only – no matter whether I play a part in her life or not.
If anyone read this – please accept my sincere thank you. I feel better after I wrote it. If you feel, you want to judge me – go to the Contact page. 🙂